Good Morning!
How amazing the sunrise was today, it was the most beautiful sunrise I have seen in a long time.
Life is damn good, just waking up and seeing that makes me think of everything I appreciate in life.
It makes me realize to not stress over small stuff, just be thankful to be alive and see the sunrise.
{ Breakfast }
Apple Protein Pizza
Millet and Flax wrap toasted up, topped with protein frosting, apple crisps, and granola.
Since Insanity, I find myself eating lots of smaller meals throughout the day. My metabolism is on fire, and I have to fuel the muscles! It is important to do this, you have to eat to build those muscles and to keep that body strong!
{ Sad Time Memory Monday }
I used to model a lot. I traveled, met a lot of great people, and had a blast doing it all.
There were many amazing people I worked with, people I will never forget and people I have made life long friendships with.
George from ONYX was one of those people, he is the man that shot this photo above. He was an amazing person.
We shot one day in Florida and from there our friendship bloomed. Sometimes you just meet people who you really relate to and feel like you have known them forever. The fun times we had during shoots, the friendship we made, and his kindness I will never forget. He was such a great person and loved by many as well, but he didn’t really know this I suppose.
He actually passed away in 2008, took his own life. I will never forget that moment I found out. I felt like it wasn’t real, he was engaged , making good money, and seemed to have it all. I was deeply saddened and still miss him to this day.
It just goes to show, you can have it all but still have nothing if you are empty inside and do not love yourself.
I used to think, wow I wish I would of known he was so sad inside, but you just don’t know sometimes.
Another loss that same year…
I lost another great person 3 months before George passed. I lost a guy who was the first guy I really liked and fell for before I met Mike, and he took his own life and it was a very rough time for me.
I remember finding out and being on my floor in the kitchen crying my eyes out and shaking. My mom came over and I was actually dating Mike at the time, and he was coming over that day and came into seeing me a mess, he was such a good support to me. He felt so bad, and he understood the situation which was nice. Same situation, he had it all, great job, was dating a girl he really liked, and had 2 beautiful kids, but somehow felt so empty. It goes to show you, how important self love is.
I still think of these two people a lot, and hope they are in peace.
Sorry for this somewhat deep post, I just like to share memories I have had in my life that have had a impact.
Have a great day friends, its my day off from insanity ( sweeeeeeet ) so I am going to get other stuff done!
Katie xoxo
Have you ever had someone close to you take their own life?
Remember, its never your fault when this happens, most people never see it coming, the person suffering hides it so well. My tow situations, you would of never known that these 2 people were hurting so bad inside to go to such drastic measures.
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So sorry to hear about George and your former love (I can’t imagine what it’s like to lose someone who used to play that role in your life). I’m glad you have such beautiful memories of them, though… thank you for sharing them for us and reminding us to take time to enjoy the sunrise.
Happy Monday, love
Awwww thank you girl!
Love you and yes, life is beautiful but has its rough times <3
Happy Monday!
Really sad, I am always shaken by news like that.
So sad. I can totally relate. I was in a long term relationship before I met my husband, his father passed away due to colon cancer, shortly after that we broke up. A few months later one of my really good friends took his life. We grew up together, had known him all my life. It was one of the most shocking, gut wrenching things I have ever gone through. I still have dreams of him. It is something that I don’t think you ever truly get over.
On another note, here’s to beautiful sunrises, and life!!!! Never take it for granted! Big hugs!
One of the reasons I read your blog (one of many reasons) is that you constantly remind me of this, and I need reminding.
Love you! Hope all is well! Im glad I can be a reminder ; )
Wow that sounds extremely difficult and Im so sorry to hear that!
I havent had someone I was personally connected to take their own life though there was a few years in a high school it seemed that a kids I had gone to school with (and been around but had not really known personally) took their own lives and it still had a huge effect on everyone in the school wether you knew them or not. Extremely sad.
Thank you girl so much for the comment. Its just sad when someone takes their own life, death is sad no matter what. It was a rough end to the year that year, and I often think of them. Thank you : )
Lump in my throat…tear in my eye…that was beautiful. I think you’re a beautiful person inside and out! You always inspire me – whatever the topic! Have a happy day
Barbara
Oh did not want to make you cry, thank you for your sweet words <3
I’m so sorry to hear about your friends; it is very difficult to deal with losing a friend, it takes a lot of time to accept.
When I was 13 years old, one of my close friends from middle school took her life. At that age, it was hard to understand how situations like that could happen to young and innocent girls. I think about her often, but you never forget that pain.
Hugs to you!! Life is precious and when you lose someone close to you, you never forget that pain.
Have a happy Monday! <3
sorry for your losses – it is never easy, but these situations are especially difficult. I think I mentioned to you once that one of my exes attempted this three times – and called me each time. this was many years ago and we were NOT together at the time, but it was extremely difficult for me and I still think about it a lot. he is happy now, has gone through the process of healing.
in high school this happened – it was a girl who seemingly had it all, and I had been in school with her since first grade. it was a shock to everyone, and we all still think of her now!
hoping for peace for all of them <3
Thanks girl, you always say the best things! <3
Hope your dad is doing ok, thinking of you! <3
I’m so sorry to hear about your beloved friend and ex-love. I think it’s worse when you find out that they take their own life instead of dying from natural causes. Even though we’re able to spend alittle time on earth together it’s better than not to know them at all. One day we’ll all be reunited above the clouds in a beautiful place & it will be fabulous. Until then lets live life to the fullest & celebrate their beautiful memory & imprint.
On a completely different note, I now refer to Shaun T as the evil bald man.
I can’t believe we’re almost half way through! And yes for metabolism increasing, I’ve definitely have noticed a difference in being satiated and chugging more water/tea. Have wonderful monday love 
Yes, we all will be reunited one day, I believe that <3
Oh Shaun T is evil, haha! SO happy for my rest day!
Awwww, honey bunny, I’m sorry that you experienced this in your life and that your friends could not see the true beauty in life as you do on a daily basis
I’ve never had anyone I’ve known take their own life….I hear people doing this and watching good people like you feel so upset over it and I just wish someone could have seen their signs and talk to them about life, you know??
Have a positive day and count your blessings!!
xxoo
Thanks girl! I appreciate the love : )
Happy Monday! xoxo <3
It’s really tough when something like this happens. I have never been super close to anyone who has taken their own life, knock on wood, but being from such a small island I know most people by a few degrees of separation and it always shakes you to hear news of their passing, particularly young people whose time it just isn’t yet. I had a lot of young male friends who died driving drunk, and one of my mom’s teenage students hung himself, which was awful to hear about. It’s such a tough thing.
On a positive note, enjoy your day off from Insanity! And you should post some of your modelling pics, I’d love to see some!xx
It is tough, but its life. So sad though, especially situations like that.
Happy Monday love!
Aw, I’m so sorry to hear that they took their own life. That is so so sad!
i think its good we remember these special people in our lives and the memories. It makes us whole, ya know?
Yes it does, and memories are life <3
You amaze me with your ability to see the bright side in any experience – I’ve never had to go through that! Each day is a truly a gift!
I’m so sorry to hear about your losses
You just never know what someone is feeling and I hope nobody close to me ever feels that helpless.
I know, sometimes you just do not see the signs.
so sorry to hear that those two friends of yours had to suffer so much in their lifetimes. i’m glad you opened up about something really personal that definitely affects so many people. i lost a high school friend/acquaintance to suicide when i was in college and i was devastated – it seems unreal when people just leave us and we have no idea that they were in such pain on the inside. anyways, thanks again for sharing and i’m glad you have so many people in your life that love you!
Your welcome for sharing, I think its good to share certain things, and things like this happen and are very sad. Im sorry to hear about you going through a loss of a friend to suicide. It really is hard to deal with, you wish you could of saved them somehow.
Have a great Tuesday love!
Friend, I’m so sorry for your losses, but what a beautiful way to remember them!
Thanks girl, death is sad but a part of life : ) just live each day to the fullest for sure : )